so i've locked myself out of my room with no number on the security guards door . this is one of thos fuckkkkkkk moments. i've been funked, I say " you don't know me" why do I purposely put up this front? I don't get it. i've also done some other freaky shit because my mind is driving me insane. well slowly you guys are leaving, its very bitter sweet. for the most part I hope to see you soon. maybe in a year i can go snowboarding in CO in the spring in a T shirt, thatd be bomb. i've got to earn it, everything I gotta earn. i'm still a kid, so I need to man up and take on some responsibility and take some initiative. do I want a girl? probably. umm cool. later