so i was like "yak", and hes like "yo" and i was just sayin "just checkin" voices echo in this stair case. "goodnight" reply "goodnight" word. found a bomb spot mogi jan, or mosquito net. such good music, cool art work, and cheap beer. what could be better. Props to jake for his road to quitting smoking, fuck hiim for getting me smoking...just kidding, but gakum i do smoke but its all gsss cause my parents used to smoke too, its all about experience. what am I going to do this weekend? get an external hardrive, trade some musac, and I suppose chill. day trip possibly sunday to some island and chill smore, take some cool photos, im psyched on this roll...hopefully, with some use of flash, diffused with a hankerchief. simple is the game, make the best pics anyways. maybe il continue later but peace

saw drunken tiger tonight, they were sick! along with dj nemark spinning and drumming on his crazy gadgets that are childrens toys made into utensils for making music. cold cut was pretty good, put on good music along with the dude spinning images and mixing with the music. that was cool.

holla back

friends are awesome, like what could be better? there there (can those two words go together like that?) to just kick it, trade interesting ideas about cool stuff music movies books chillen spots art nature stuff to make life day by day better. they will listen to you blab about who knows what where you'll be in ten years, what the hell you want to do with your life, the girl that drives you crazy, those funny ass times you had to carry each other up the stairs cause everyone was to wasted shit like that that doesn't matter sometimes just makes them laugh. you can laugh joke jump run hug be sassy and a little mean at times but we love to take it all all cause were friends. bomb. friends are there and they are trustworthy, let them in and let them be merry with you. its so good to hug and bring each other up, make each other smile and laugh, thats like the best. i wasn't going to call my friends tonight, just chill in my mind but I rang a couple kids and they were all inviting out and shit seeing if you wanted to chill and catch a flick and stuff like that, thats cool. well peace

crunch time

hmm so when lonening around, find a friend cause its crunch time. times winding down and i'm already anticipating saying peace, and can't wait to see you again. Thats the one thing thats going to keep me sane, fuck. this is going to be a crazy year to come. this is out of a murakami book..."no man should go through life without once experiencing healthy, even bored solitude in the wilderness(shigol for me) finding hiimself depending solely on himself and thereby learning his true and hidden strength" bomb. I hope I grow and mature out of this opportunity, and I hope it helps me become a better and good person in the long run. I think i'm a good guy, I was brought up by a loving mother, so much fucking love I can't believe i've hurt her before. but i've had enough of those days, i'm over that shit. well maybe i'm an emotional cat, born like that and i'm like that to the bone. I'm caring dude, I love you guys to death and I look forward to seeing you again and then again and again for the rest of our times on this earth. fuck even in heaven dudes i'm getting there so I'll see you guys there too. but hey were here now so lets live it up, this has been a short and amazing time and we still have each other so lets make the best out of it. just keep racking out memories that we can live on till we make more when we meet up again. Its going to see what you guys are all about back in your home elements, and I hope you guys give minnesota a chance...you guys are like whatever but dont hate! its amazing I swear :) Its going to be awesome how you've grown, and if I still see things from you guys that I saw here in Korea. How we all came together so quickly and were willing to accept each other for who we were and how we all contributed to how interesting we all are and how unique we all are. Fate has put this all together, how else could we have met up so perfectly, in this time and place and got along so well. how does that kind of shit work out? its got to be a higher power or something, im amazed and grateful for you guys. I can't imagine life without you guys now and I would have never expected the experience abroad to be this fulfilling and nourishing for the soul. soul mates dude best buds for life awesome. anyways im chillen at my desk, i have a blue akaraka bandana covering my lamp, tinting my room blue, white light reflecting my awesome tapestry that breathes when I open my window. I've got a pom bottle full of love from my grandma, a awesome picture from my bud brady, moms tshirt thats wrapping my dads camera. cousins guitar, annas book, 10 year old star wars journal, school books, zen and moto cycle maintence thats like months overdew. junk filling my cubbords, yellow tail wine bottle from that night i expressed my deepest fears to May, crown royal bottle that i split duty free with seth, I dont thinks hes had much of that yet, frisbess, lenses, paintings, borrowed art books (andy goldsworthy Time its awesome) pressed leaves in alice in wonderland book, cds planet earth, van gogh flier, bob burnquist poster, sculpture with color poster, telephone alarm clock and a bunch of paper and junk on the fridge, sams lap top and rubix cube on his dest, giant muscle milk thing that I was like wahhhh when I first came into my room to see his shit there, I remember the first time I saw him, asleep and shit, opened his eyes said what up and shit, i'm sam shook his hand and then crashed. cool. made bed with korean book on it, skateboard hidden under my bed, full trash bag, empty water bottles, thermus full of green tea. and me alone, listening to music in the best headphones in the world, 30 man won damn i'm happy with theses things. wish you could see my life, i wish I could tell you everything so you could know me perfectly but you won't but that makes our relationships interesting does it not? how boring would it be if you knew everything about me? but its good to get close to somebody, so you can talk, and understand each other, share great moments together and stuff like that, be who you really are. i'm happy I made that one relationship...plus the other meaningful ones i've made with you guys tagged on my blog wall. our group is awesome dudes im so sincere in trying to say I love you guys. I hope you understand cause I haven't felt this close to people in a long time. you guys really helped me grow, and feel wanted and meaningful. awesome i've got these friends for life. am I getting repetitive? whatever. ill cya guys tomorrow. good to know that. laters. ps love you guys

kangbanger24: hey
HOLLAMAX106: hey
HOLLAMAX106: today was thanksgiving
kangbanger24: happy thanksgiving, i didn't call home I feel kinda bad
kangbanger24: yeasterday was thanksgiving here
HOLLAMAX106: thanks, happy thanksgiving to you too
HOLLAMAX106: so have you checked out all the music i gave you?
kangbanger24: i'm likeon the fifth disc
HOLLAMAX106: nice, told you u would get a shitload
kangbanger24: theres something good one all of them, i'm happy about this. im listening to shining star right now
kangbanger24: haha yeah forsure
HOLLAMAX106: listen to it all, even if some of the stuff you might not normally listen to, who knows maybe you might like
kangbanger24: yeah forsure, like oysterhead is so good
kangbanger24: and aaron and adam poole, wish there was smore of them
HOLLAMAX106: yeah they are, funny thing is i always knew they were good, but i didn't realize how sick some of those songs were till this summer when i got high after work and drove around listening to it
kangbanger24: haha sweet
kangbanger24: yeah theres a dude that said he can get me a bag, i'm not sure about it though
HOLLAMAX106: how long has it been since you did it last?
kangbanger24: like the night before we left
kangbanger24: and before that before 10k
HOLLAMAX106: yeah, i hear ya
kangbanger24: probably better to not, I wouldn't want it to interfere with interacting with friends and shit, might get a bad rep if people knew
HOLLAMAX106: i went from like august to halloween weekend, and ostlund smokes all the time, so i did in madison and it was alright
HOLLAMAX106: then the next time was like two weeks ago in duluth and i got sick cuz i took a huge zong load when i was drunk, i dunno what i was thinking
HOLLAMAX106: the next day was good though cuz it cured my hangover
HOLLAMAX106: and then the last time since then was yesterday at pats and i took like 1 hit and it was perfect
kangbanger24: oh word, yeah the group of friends i have here would be cool to chill with, and they'd be down. but theres a girl I really like, I couldn't have it intefere tha'd be not worth it to me hhah, thats sucks about the zhong but thats good it saved your hangover yeah i think splifts would be super chill and I could keep my mind and chill and stuff
HOLLAMAX106: word
kangbanger24: word
HOLLAMAX106: is she not down with that?
kangbanger24: nah probably not, shes a pretty good girl, like a christian im saying
HOLLAMAX106: i kinda wanna get back into it cuz i've been getting into some crazy jazz that i can't really understand unless i'm high
kangbanger24: hahah
HOLLAMAX106: cuz i was riding around in travs car and he put in some coltrane and in my head i was just like this shit is tight
kangbanger24: i want to get stoned so I have crazy thoughts when im baked and chillen and when I come down just chill. definately, damn rollin around seems like such a sweet thing to do
kangbanger24: i miss that shit
HOLLAMAX106: yeah, we weren't even rolling around, we were just going some where, i miss rolling around too
HOLLAMAX106: its probably gonna come back this winter
HOLLAMAX106: its always a winter thing cuz it's usually too cold to do anything else
HOLLAMAX106: like old days in brady's acclaim
HOLLAMAX106: when we got stuck behind lunds hahahahaha
kangbanger24: hahah fer sure
kangbanger24: i remember that vividly
HOLLAMAX106: lol
HOLLAMAX106: that was so much fun when we weren't getting stuck and just hitting the giant snow bumps
kangbanger24: hahah yeah true that
kangbanger24: we were pretty young too, that was a good time
kangbanger24: ohhh darkstar nicee
HOLLAMAX106: yeah from fillmore west 69?
kangbanger24: yeah for sure
HOLLAMAX106: that shit is like a favorite of mine
kangbanger24: yeah mine too
HOLLAMAX106: me and you had a jam once that reminded me of that version
kangbanger24: i know, we'll have it again someday
HOLLAMAX106: it was in your room at our old place when we got backed, i was doing finger picking on your acoustic and you were doing some crazy sliding on your les paul
kangbanger24: i remember, it was to one of your firsties songs, those songs bring back so much feeling its impossible to play a bad note, its all passion so each finger goes exactly where its supposed to those times are amazing
HOLLAMAX106: oh yeah i remember that
HOLLAMAX106: i went into my C chord finger picking first song i ever wrote song
kangbanger24: yeah thats the one
kangbanger24: i love that one
kangbanger24: damn i miss those times, but we'll have them again
HOLLAMAX106: yeah fersher
HOLLAMAX106: i need a new guitar so bad
kangbanger24: for sure
kangbanger24: and a big amp
kangbanger24: haha
HOLLAMAX106: my electric has such an uncomfortable neck
kangbanger24: actually a blues junior would suite well
kangbanger24: really?
HOLLAMAX106: yeah
kangbanger24: i never knew you felt that way
HOLLAMAX106: having a comfortable neck is prime if you wanna play well
kangbanger24: most definately, hows my guitar been?
HOLLAMAX106: it so much more tough to do some things with my neck
HOLLAMAX106: yours is pretty good
kangbanger24: strats have like multiple necks, you'll find a good one
HOLLAMAX106: i liked spigg's the most
kangbanger24: ohhh on his tele?
HOLLAMAX106: yeah
HOLLAMAX106: they do it on strats too
kangbanger24: that is nice
HOLLAMAX106: they kind of curve the top fretboard part and its way easy to do slides
HOLLAMAX106: not slides
HOLLAMAX106: i mean bends
kangbanger24: mine has like a good curve, it fits my hand pretty well. it seems skinny too thats nice with spi'gs
HOLLAMAX106: yeah yours is good cuz your strings are made a little closer to the neck and it is a bit easier to play quicker then on other guitars
kangbanger24: word i miss my guitar too and jamming. but it was good to get this package, I really like the drawings
HOLLAMAX106: yeah, i told jess to draw some trees and trippy looking stuff
HOLLAMAX106: her tree is so tight
kangbanger24: haha i really like the girl she drew. but the tree is quite excellent
HOLLAMAX106: i realized that it kinda looks like a tree both ways ifyou turn it upside down
kangbanger24: and then the raindrops look like falling leaves. awesome
HOLLAMAX106: did you like my mini book?
kangbanger24: haha with the henp and the drawings, and the tripping story on the inside?
HOLLAMAX106: yeah
HOLLAMAX106: that story was fiction
kangbanger24: yeah dude, I like the whole package and the drawing is quite excellent
HOLLAMAX106: i mean non fiction
kangbanger24: yeah I know
HOLLAMAX106: lol
kangbanger24: i can't believe you chill with travs parents trippin thats crazy
HOLLAMAX106: dude
HOLLAMAX106: it was insane
HOLLAMAX106: they didn't know
HOLLAMAX106: they might have had an idea
kangbanger24: i know ! thats crazy
HOLLAMAX106: but there was a moment when we peaked
kangbanger24: how would they have an idea
HOLLAMAX106: let me tell you
kangbanger24: my name is choco haha
HOLLAMAX106: lol
kangbanger24: okay go on
HOLLAMAX106: so we get back to travs after discing with brady
kangbanger24: k
HOLLAMAX106: and we are just tripping balls now
kangbanger24: hahz
HOLLAMAX106: trav is like you wanna jam?
HOLLAMAX106: i was like yeah lets give it a try
kangbanger24: do you play my guitar everyt ime?
HOLLAMAX106: yes
kangbanger24: nice
HOLLAMAX106: now our minds are just wandering
kangbanger24: are you playing at this moment?
HOLLAMAX106: we get in the jam room and i start plucking the strings kinda
HOLLAMAX106: trav hits the drums a couple times
HOLLAMAX106: i'm distracted by his posters
HOLLAMAX106: and my hands were too sweaty too jam and i had to take a piss
kangbanger24: cause shits moving right
HOLLAMAX106: exactly
kangbanger24: that sucks
kangbanger24: i mean its good
kangbanger24: but it sucks you had distractios other than playing music
HOLLAMAX106: and we were just giving eachother weird looks like (man this is weird, i dunno if we can do this)
HOLLAMAX106: like confused looks
HOLLAMAX106: so we literally jam for less than 45 seconds
kangbanger24: that sucks, maybe you guys couldve listenend to black star for inspiration next time, or someday, or maybe not trippin but listen to this shit and we'll jam someday
HOLLAMAX106: and stop, i'm like i gotta piss
kangbanger24: bummer
HOLLAMAX106: i go to the bathroom
HOLLAMAX106: i walk out and i notice trav is in his room
kangbanger24: ahhh that sucks
HOLLAMAX106: and i'm like hey, weren't we gonna jam?
HOLLAMAX106: he's sitting at his desk looking at me and is like i think i'm gonna go to bed
HOLLAMAX106: and in my head i'm like nooooooooo
HOLLAMAX106: so i now i know he's not doing well
HOLLAMAX106: even though he hasn't really said it yet
kangbanger24: yeah I got this part and understood the most from the story
HOLLAMAX106: i try to do everything possible to make him feel better
kangbanger24: that shits tough
HOLLAMAX106: i sit on his couch in his room and just listen to music and stare around at things
HOLLAMAX106: all the sudden i look up
HOLLAMAX106: i see trav undressing in like super fast speed and in my head i'm like oh he was hot and sweaty, maybe he's gonna shower
HOLLAMAX106: so he goes in his bathroom
kangbanger24: what time is this at
HOLLAMAX106: i keep listening to music
HOLLAMAX106: around 5 or 6 i think
kangbanger24: ahh
HOLLAMAX106: all the sudden i hear his door open again and he's back in his room
HOLLAMAX106: i look up, i see his back side, he is but naked
kangbanger24: haha
kangbanger24: hahaha fuck
HOLLAMAX106: apparently he ran in cuz he forgot his boxers
HOLLAMAX106: but he also forgot a towel from the bathroom which would explain the nudity
kangbanger24: hahah
HOLLAMAX106: and he runs in closes the bathroom door
HOLLAMAX106: i'm still in his room
kangbanger24: showering?
HOLLAMAX106: all the sudden i hear his parents coming down
HOLLAMAX106: and i'm like oh shit
HOLLAMAX106: they probably heard all the door slamming
HOLLAMAX106: they can't see us like this
kangbanger24: didn't they see you before though?
HOLLAMAX106: not when we were peaking
kangbanger24: ahhh
kangbanger24: scary dude
HOLLAMAX106: his mom saw us just when we first ate the acid
HOLLAMAX106: so she didn't know
kangbanger24: no she wouldn't
HOLLAMAX106: so now his parents are trying to tell him that they are leaving to see a movie
kangbanger24: ahh
HOLLAMAX106: and i'm in his room pacing back and forth trying to figure out something to do to hide the fact that i'm tripping balls in case they come in his room
HOLLAMAX106: thankfully they never did
kangbanger24: ohhnice
HOLLAMAX106: but in my head i was like holy shit, trav and his parents
kangbanger24: hmm strange they didn't say antying to you
kangbanger24: did trav manage to speak?
HOLLAMAX106: i remembered a time when trav told me that he gets scared of his dad when he is high cuz he's like doing a bad thing.
HOLLAMAX106: hold on one sec
kangbanger24: k
HOLLAMAX106: i brought my laptop to the bathroom so i can keep talking to you and shit turkey at the same time
HOLLAMAX106: k back to the story
kangbanger24: fuck that, dont tell me that shit
HOLLAMAX106: hahahhaha
kangbanger24: hahah
kangbanger24: k go on then
HOLLAMAX106: so in my head i'm like, shit he's tripping right now and his dad is talking to him
HOLLAMAX106: so trav doesn't even say words back to them
HOLLAMAX106: they are talking to him through a closed door
HOLLAMAX106: trav responds back with like weird sounds like
HOLLAMAX106: hugh
HOLLAMAX106: eeeoooaaght
kangbanger24: hmm
kangbanger24: what
HOLLAMAX106: like saying huh? and uh huh, and allright without actually pronouncing the words
HOLLAMAX106: so it kinda worked
kangbanger24: i suppose thats good
HOLLAMAX106: and then they leave and on their way they're like cya later max, and i yell back cya
kangbanger24: oh nice
HOLLAMAX106: and later trav explains to me that when they knocked on his bathroom door he happend to be lying in the middle of his bathroom but naked staring around with the lights off
kangbanger24: fuck thats crazy man
HOLLAMAX106: yeah
kangbanger24: i guess they didn't notice the lights were off
HOLLAMAX106: so that was the crazy part of how trav's parents never knew but somehow might
kangbanger24: ahhh
kangbanger24: thats fucking weird
HOLLAMAX106: yeah
kangbanger24: don't show up tripping balls to travi's house anymore
kangbanger24: haha
HOLLAMAX106: i don't know if i ever wanna trip there again lol
kangbanger24: word to that
HOLLAMAX106: just little details from my trip make me not want to
kangbanger24: no and its sketchy, were getting older, it'd be bad to get in trouble for tripping at this point
HOLLAMAX106: like whenever i would piss in his bathroom, i'd wanna wash my hands afterward but i was afraid of touching his soap cuz his bar of soap happened to be in this weird looking soap puddle
HOLLAMAX106: so i would like tap the soap like trying to pet an angry dog
kangbanger24: haha and that freaked you out ahhah
kangbanger24: weird
HOLLAMAX106: yeah, i told trav about it the next day and he noticed the same thing
HOLLAMAX106: when he was tripping
HOLLAMAX106: that his soap looked fucked up
kangbanger24: hmmm interesting
HOLLAMAX106: and there was also a moment when we tried saying like whats up or hey to teddy and it kinda came out neither and she was like weirded out by us and i felt bad
HOLLAMAX106: so we like ran down stairs
kangbanger24: yeah dude, thats kinda messed up. you guys shouldn't trip in ptown as a matter, go hiking in duluth if you do it or something sweet like that
kangbanger24: where you don't know family and friends you could hurt
HOLLAMAX106: right
kangbanger24: word, by saying that I dont think i should buy this bag of pot
HOLLAMAX106: tbags took us on an adventure and we climbed on top of this like boulder i think
kangbanger24: tyt hows he doing?
HOLLAMAX106: and you could see all of duluth for miles and miles
kangbanger24: really? damn im jealous
kangbanger24: that mustve been beautiful
HOLLAMAX106: it was tight, but it was kinda tough to see cuz it was snowing that day
HOLLAMAX106: i think it was like the first or second snow day
HOLLAMAX106: so it was cloudy
kangbanger24: yeah i hear you
HOLLAMAX106: you can see some pictures in brady's album
kangbanger24: oh yeah, with that crazy fort and the tree with the mushrroms growing
HOLLAMAX106: yeah
kangbanger24: word
HOLLAMAX106: all the guys are doing well up there
HOLLAMAX106: i like that town
kangbanger24: me too, thats good to hear
kangbanger24: i missed this fill more album damn its good

meaning..meaningful

to be updated soon(philos concepts i enjoy..need to look through notes again..): at lunch today we had a discussion, me may and alex. I usually don't participate but said a word or too. It was on how well you know a person, and by how you may "know them" We talked about communication, how it can be false in trying to express the feeling being shared within the relationship. I think its about feeling, vibes and comfort. im hippy like that to run a relationship on vibes but theres more to it. Expression should be important in getting to know somebody, words may not be everything, sharing moments help build character within the relationship, spending time, chillen, those quiet times are important too. The mystery in what the person may be thinking keeps interest in each other and allows for different ways of learning about the person. I think getting to know someone takes patience and time. Once you become comfortable with somebody the words you use have more meaning, and you can express yourself in fewer words and they will understand even if you don't say anything. these bonds are awesome, do you have one? I think I do, I know a pair of girls who do like twins, me and my friend max, when we play music we bond and share a moment and we feel the same passion. When getting to know somebody my mind gets all abstract and perplexed on how they feel about me and if there is meaning in this relationship. This is due to the ignorance of trust, pushing for something that might not be really there is stupid. with time you begin to understand the person and then the negative thoughts on meaning will start to lighten and allow for a healthy relationship. With time people will find the bonds that hold the group of friends or couples together. And with our time here it was short but we had to come to trust and love each other very quickly. this initial action is the bond we needed to continue our friendships when we all return to our homes. this all bond will ensure we see each others again someday, could be years from now but I will know there will be utmost excitement and enjoyment in each others companies. With seeing each other in our home elements that will create another experience, another effect to base trust on, and another shared moment to recall meaningful memories.

elements

haha wandered looking for a comp, ending up finding an apple in kli kitchen today and of coarse I knew who'd be there but meh didn't know what to come of it. they were out of bananas, thats what i wanted but I split an apple and enjoyed. glad to see that May was down there, I would have been completely out of my element otherwise, but she gave me so enthusiasm and humor out of what the F i was doing..haha she was curious as in what i was up to..I might have looked ridisculous standing there but whatever haha it lightened my spirits. proceded to keep doodling in my korean class, wheres the effort? in other things shttt forgive I can't focus right now. went to dongdaemun with some foolios *cooliosO and spent some good time walking around chillen grubbing talking finding shit to do, ending up coming to shinchon, said peace and headed to festival...da da dahhhh. but luckily derek wasn't to harsh so I came home walking straight. sams a good kid, my roomate, cool dude fo sho and hes here for a year, hes gonna be a good chillen buddy, its one thing to have a friend but a roomate is a bond like no other.. its legitamitly close. now im listening to this song repeating on a webpage and its okay with me, cause im super chill

sitting time

during our temple stay we attended Buddhist prayers and then were given time to sit and meditate. We were told how to sit, how to breath and the first steps in thinking. There was a cup analogy the head monk used, pour the cup empty to be filled again with better things..because a full cup cannot be filled. release all anger and thoughts that deepen the heart, clear the heart and mind of negative influences and let thoughts about one self come in and out freely. Who am I? what does the heart long for? what is meaningful for ones self to be happy? think about these questions in a quiet time and see what it means for you. It was really cool experience, after meditation the monk hit a split bamboo stick and it was like being awakened from a dream. it was something different.

change huh?

so on saying my goodbyes to fellow krew members back home, my friend brian told me he wanted to see a change in me when I come back home. With that i have a month before I make a decision on a opportunity that will change my life forever. So i'm sometimes a ceramic artist...its pretty good stuff, I work hard for it and its interesting to me. Through Anna and her hagwon sansangnem I met a guy who lives in the shigol that would teach me and let me work by his side. He has many traditional skills, including the earlier blue celadon glaze, very beautiful and subtle. I'd move in, sleep, eat and work with this guy, monday through friday for an entire year! In a year I could hopefully learn about building kilns, loading and firing techniques, ceramic philosophies and throwing and decorating techniques. All in a Korean environment and style. It would be very unique to acquire these skills and potentially could become a professional of my own. I play with very abstract shapes and decorations, very spontaneous in my brush strokes and don't correlate accordingly(now i know) but with this chance I will learn tradition forms to functional ware.

this is some recent folky, but my ultimate function was the butter dish given to my friend maudie

I need a taste of that instead of the abstract do what you will teachings of american Unis. I should probably plan on graduation college though I could see myself in an uptown/downtown studio throwing and selling my things to northern clay center and 10k festival. but i'm getting ahead of myself, this would be such a huge commitment, all day long working with clay, sounds cool and all but its hard ass work and I gotta man up to be prepared to handle this load. I may be in a peaceful mindstate or I may be driven into deep contemplation of life and meaning. I'll be sending you guys lots of letters to keep me sane. So it seems I can't pass this opportunity up, I should probably go home and say hi to mommy and tell her the news but we'll see.

gotta do my homework

first off blogs are cool, another interesting way to procrastinate homework while doing something worthwhile for the most part. I've spent this time in Korea girl crazy, like thats ccarajeee. every girl is cute makes a 19 (20 korean) year old boy spin in circles sometimes. I wish i had a dica for you fellas back home, haha you guys are missing out. Its only recently I got my head out of the swivel and perhaps now theres a girl worthwhile. with a little over a month It could leave me hurt to say bye, cause its going to suck anyways, but finding a yaja chingu thats something else. I'm glad t kreeble looked down on his pretty sweet bro for being a playa. thanks man I owe you my innocence. Now its rolling and if I dont want this to get away I gotta man up(im kinda shy sometimes, spend some time avoiding and hahah). infatuation at its prime i'm going to get a coffee where she usually is, just to say hi. I can do this right? right. oh and dinner, dinner is good haha. im smiling right now, at how dorky this post is and maybe at the possibilities of our coffee meeting. I spent sometime hating the consuming thoughts in my brain, but all feelings are natural so if they come one way or the other accept them. infatuation, its a wild one but it makes things exciting, whats going to happen next? I gotta see her. I came out of left field with this one, i'm glad I gave her ppr. i glad she was the one who got the ppr. i'm thinking hella worthwile. time is to act now! oh btw I might have an apprentice ship!! booyah meet the dude tomorrow. word

to much mind

lets start forward and rewind, haha I ate dinner at the pork cutlet house down the street with the cute parents who run the place. Umm after eating I accused the man that he took my level two spice and put level 3 in the back end of it. I was sweating from those jalapenos and wasabi but it was GOOD. After the meal proceeded to pay on my check card, to get denied, handed the 2,000 in my pocket and the combo was still denied. haha got a quick scolding and was told to come back tomorrow with 3,000 won. I had a good laugh, my mom used to pull this stuff she told me once, don absa =) played some Korean pool before I ate, that game takes lots of practice but the english sure is fun to mess around with. before that I dug my fox hole in the brain of mine, the to much mind is relevant because Igor said that during our pool game, I guess I might have taken a few too many looks at angles just be super chill. I stressed myself out over little things that my own mind probably makes up. such confusion and false sense of reality the mind can create. Its healthy to think on the negative things but thats gotta be brief. I hate dying batteries (camera, cd player) you can break my moment but I can get new onces and extra ones to enjoy the more moments to come. you have to move on and focus on whats good, that will life will be lived with a lighter happier heart. I had a roll of bali shag, and listened to some tribe called quest. that smoke was just because the cruising past taxis and olliing man holes wasn't lifting me up. I got kicked out today like off the street what is that business? bs but giving the man the cold shoulder cheered me up a little bit. now im listening to la femme d'argent on radio.blog.club this site is pretty bomb. well even earlier I spent the afternoon in hongdae, almost made a good enough excuse to skip korea (should have got written down for napping front row yeah!..no) anna, hannah, and I banana went to the hagwon and met an intersting teachers, very nice guy, said he'd ask about an apprentice ship for me, carrying water from mtns, chopping wood, and loading kilns, the roots of all pottery, I don't even care if I throw that experience is deep. before that in the morn went banging pc style with james and seth. stale mate of a game, what was james doing the whole game? shit hes like Rome taking over that other half. and was rudely awakened by an RA collecting some mogi repellers and ac remotes, i was during my 2nd and a half phase of sleep, woke up out of it and was like what come in what do you want? come back later "what?" (apparently he didnt understand) najung eh oah, "no now" fucker. and now im listening to buena vista social club aright well ... keep checking in peace

good morning

I awoke this morning smiling cause shes so fine, shes so very very fine (shes so fine)_jimi Hendrix. Post PPR day, its pretty good how things happened and how they didn't. I went out the previous night and had a couple drinks with may. somewhere in this conversation I found meaning and "kept my eye on the prize" word. Doing things because you can doesn't mean you should, like you can strip your clothes and run around naked, but you wouldn't...would you? Its reassuring to hear that I am better than a physical body, that I have a mind and its worth it to get to learn more about it. (get to know me)Brady__ in my picture above knows me like no other, I can't even play poker with him its carajee. But he's been a good friend, even if we have our drunken fucking around with each other moments. it takes patience. If you want to be sweet' take a leaf from my book it comes to naturally...haha you are you conceded bastard, well its true thats why we never have... Writing notes 101, find birch would, make sure you get a clean piece, free of mold and such. Practice whats to be written such as You have cute cheeks.. call me oPeter (be sure to sign the note) short and sweet will be the game. Presents are better wrapped, it takes more effort, especially when you don't have tape and have to improvise to seal the seals. ie: use of honey worked after pressing and drying. Build a little excitement, check your 203 mailbox, lets some curiosity and emotion happen. Be sure to address the something something, you wouldn't want the wrong girl to get the right impression.

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does this work? this is my first blog. Is this going to take away from writing in my journal, it is an efficient way to jot thoughts, not as organic as pen on paper but what isn't technology taking over?