crunch time

hmm so when lonening around, find a friend cause its crunch time. times winding down and i'm already anticipating saying peace, and can't wait to see you again. Thats the one thing thats going to keep me sane, fuck. this is going to be a crazy year to come. this is out of a murakami book..."no man should go through life without once experiencing healthy, even bored solitude in the wilderness(shigol for me) finding hiimself depending solely on himself and thereby learning his true and hidden strength" bomb. I hope I grow and mature out of this opportunity, and I hope it helps me become a better and good person in the long run. I think i'm a good guy, I was brought up by a loving mother, so much fucking love I can't believe i've hurt her before. but i've had enough of those days, i'm over that shit. well maybe i'm an emotional cat, born like that and i'm like that to the bone. I'm caring dude, I love you guys to death and I look forward to seeing you again and then again and again for the rest of our times on this earth. fuck even in heaven dudes i'm getting there so I'll see you guys there too. but hey were here now so lets live it up, this has been a short and amazing time and we still have each other so lets make the best out of it. just keep racking out memories that we can live on till we make more when we meet up again. Its going to see what you guys are all about back in your home elements, and I hope you guys give minnesota a chance...you guys are like whatever but dont hate! its amazing I swear :) Its going to be awesome how you've grown, and if I still see things from you guys that I saw here in Korea. How we all came together so quickly and were willing to accept each other for who we were and how we all contributed to how interesting we all are and how unique we all are. Fate has put this all together, how else could we have met up so perfectly, in this time and place and got along so well. how does that kind of shit work out? its got to be a higher power or something, im amazed and grateful for you guys. I can't imagine life without you guys now and I would have never expected the experience abroad to be this fulfilling and nourishing for the soul. soul mates dude best buds for life awesome. anyways im chillen at my desk, i have a blue akaraka bandana covering my lamp, tinting my room blue, white light reflecting my awesome tapestry that breathes when I open my window. I've got a pom bottle full of love from my grandma, a awesome picture from my bud brady, moms tshirt thats wrapping my dads camera. cousins guitar, annas book, 10 year old star wars journal, school books, zen and moto cycle maintence thats like months overdew. junk filling my cubbords, yellow tail wine bottle from that night i expressed my deepest fears to May, crown royal bottle that i split duty free with seth, I dont thinks hes had much of that yet, frisbess, lenses, paintings, borrowed art books (andy goldsworthy Time its awesome) pressed leaves in alice in wonderland book, cds planet earth, van gogh flier, bob burnquist poster, sculpture with color poster, telephone alarm clock and a bunch of paper and junk on the fridge, sams lap top and rubix cube on his dest, giant muscle milk thing that I was like wahhhh when I first came into my room to see his shit there, I remember the first time I saw him, asleep and shit, opened his eyes said what up and shit, i'm sam shook his hand and then crashed. cool. made bed with korean book on it, skateboard hidden under my bed, full trash bag, empty water bottles, thermus full of green tea. and me alone, listening to music in the best headphones in the world, 30 man won damn i'm happy with theses things. wish you could see my life, i wish I could tell you everything so you could know me perfectly but you won't but that makes our relationships interesting does it not? how boring would it be if you knew everything about me? but its good to get close to somebody, so you can talk, and understand each other, share great moments together and stuff like that, be who you really are. i'm happy I made that one relationship...plus the other meaningful ones i've made with you guys tagged on my blog wall. our group is awesome dudes im so sincere in trying to say I love you guys. I hope you understand cause I haven't felt this close to people in a long time. you guys really helped me grow, and feel wanted and meaningful. awesome i've got these friends for life. am I getting repetitive? whatever. ill cya guys tomorrow. good to know that. laters. ps love you guys