lately i've had the thoughts of what I'm supposed to do after graduation. I am graduating in February with my graduation exhibition in December. I have long awaited this time, and now that its drawing near, I've been evaluating with probably more mental energy than really necessary. Life just works, so I don't really know what i'm fussing about...but... nonetheless I am.
Today, woke up thinking I had to go to missions training, but I didn't have to. Nice! Got the whole morning to myself. Tried to do backed up homework, wasn't much of a success, but made bits of progress. Enough to get it done when it is needed.
Rode my bike to Itaewon, had a jam session with K1 house of prayer, and rode back home to get ready for BK's bachelor party. Got doored by a taxi on the way, that sucked. Minor but sucky. Walked the rest of the way up the hill and started to help the brotha's out. We had a BBQ on top of Mat's roof, overlooking Hongdae, with the setting sun behind the haze in the distance. It was very asian esque. It was great.
I have my doubts. More or less, more is less. I'm suffering with the freedom of choice, kind of ironic? Too many things I want to do, and the idea of doing them all makes me feel like a jack of all traits. What do I want to do? Be a professional bum that makes six figures; that can work three to four days a week so that a couple of days I can rock climb, play guitar, ride my bicycle, prep photo shoots, and the like. The weekend I can better dedicate to ministry stuff and things of my liking. But life probably isn't that easy, and probably all of that will leave me at the same level of fulfillment that it has given me now (cause that is the life I'm living minus the large amounts of money that would likely bring my grief.)
So what will I do? Get a job.
What will I have to give up?
Dreams of being a rock climber/outdoor photographer.
Will I have to give up dreams of rocking shows with my band? I don' think so, all of the members have day jobs as it is already.
I can use two of maybe the three weeks of vacation I have to go learn the trait of bicycle building and maintenance in Oregon so that is not totally out the window.
In the days end, these are all just my ideas, we will see what really happens.
Today, woke up thinking I had to go to missions training, but I didn't have to. Nice! Got the whole morning to myself. Tried to do backed up homework, wasn't much of a success, but made bits of progress. Enough to get it done when it is needed.
Rode my bike to Itaewon, had a jam session with K1 house of prayer, and rode back home to get ready for BK's bachelor party. Got doored by a taxi on the way, that sucked. Minor but sucky. Walked the rest of the way up the hill and started to help the brotha's out. We had a BBQ on top of Mat's roof, overlooking Hongdae, with the setting sun behind the haze in the distance. It was very asian esque. It was great.
I have my doubts. More or less, more is less. I'm suffering with the freedom of choice, kind of ironic? Too many things I want to do, and the idea of doing them all makes me feel like a jack of all traits. What do I want to do? Be a professional bum that makes six figures; that can work three to four days a week so that a couple of days I can rock climb, play guitar, ride my bicycle, prep photo shoots, and the like. The weekend I can better dedicate to ministry stuff and things of my liking. But life probably isn't that easy, and probably all of that will leave me at the same level of fulfillment that it has given me now (cause that is the life I'm living minus the large amounts of money that would likely bring my grief.)
So what will I do? Get a job.
What will I have to give up?
Dreams of being a rock climber/outdoor photographer.
Will I have to give up dreams of rocking shows with my band? I don' think so, all of the members have day jobs as it is already.
I can use two of maybe the three weeks of vacation I have to go learn the trait of bicycle building and maintenance in Oregon so that is not totally out the window.
In the days end, these are all just my ideas, we will see what really happens.
