I was mad a little bit ago. I hit the floor, hit my desk, and went outside for a walk.

I'm not sure where it came from, frustrated, feeling a bit judged, feeling like I failed myself and weirdly to say my dog. It is sad.

I calmed down on my walk, I knew I couldn't continue to abuse myself on the rare occasion I do feel angry, where did that come from and how will I react? I don't want to be a ticking time bomb waiting for my next explosion, not that I think I am, but its just a thought.